Say they are okay when they are not. Hide their sounds of crying from me. Flinch at the sound of my voice. Want to be alone when I am around.
For if my child feels the way I feel, I apologize. I did not intend for you to experience my childhood. I never want you to feel the same.
I don’t want you to lie awake, Being the mother I wasn’t there to be. Nursing yourself back to dry eyes. Telling yourself you are okay when you know you aren’t.
I want them to wake me up when they cry, To know that their mind comes first. To know that their feelings are valid no matter what. I need them to know that mental health is invisible but not unnoticed.