Anna, please be okay. Life is too rich a chance to flush it all away, if it isn't already too late, I implore you to delay; Death will always be waiting for you, there's no need to rush for it today.
Anna, there is much to see, much to learn, much to be. I know you're a Soul in duress, but please don't let that end the rest; express it and get it off your chest and then try to build on that and move on to some new Quest.
Each Soul in this Reality is tried in it's own Fire from the moment of Birth until the surrender to Death; Life is a constant and abrasive Journey, an opportunity, a chance, even somewhat of a Test.
Anna, please be okay. I hope it isn't already too late, You have friends who truly care; who will listen, even here, on the coldness of the Internet.
Anna, please be okay. I enjoy your writings; what you have to say. Your perspective is unique and your style is entrancing. There is such great potential here in this Life for you.
If you're still there, please, be strong; you owe it to yourself not to die so young.