No one will ever read my journals Any more than they read my odes. I’ve left my mark so carefully But I wrote it in the sand And I wrote it at low tide.
You need to carve your name in stone In words that live eternally Not write in smoke across the sky Where zephyr winds will scatter it.
I wanted to be recognized A standout in the crowd I hoped my brilliant verbiage Would capture fashion’s eye And I could win the cakewalk.
But the cameras turned the other way And never saw me fan my plume. I followed them for half a mile But they never turned to look.
No one will note my journal here The one who could, strives to forget. I’ll be someone without a name Who couldn’t reach out far enough To grab and keep the golden ring. ljm
Battling depression again. Losing. Who do I think I am, anyway.