Someday, you'll be able to discover a box full of my unsent letters for you.
Each of them written carefully
Not just everyday
But every minute and every second
I missed you.
Sounds corny but that's the realilty
I cannot deny.

Someday you'll get to read all of it, for the first and the last time.
And during that moment, you'd think of me ******* my own self for your own sake.
For the sake of love.
You'll imagine me naked in front of you.
You'll imagine me making love with you again.
And by that time, you'd feel what I've felt.
The euphoria,
the bliss,
the confusion,
the melancholia,
the heartaches.
Then you'd assume I'm still the same me from before.
But you'd be mistaken.
Because like a snake, I change my skin every now and then.
Leaving them behind the lovers I had.
Leaving them behind every guy I met, and fell inlove with.
Leaving them behind, in the past.
Yours was different tho.
Because that old skin of mine,
I didn't leave with you and the past,
I buried it.
Hid it 6 feet below the ground.
I hid it for you to never see.
To never find.
Because I know the moment you'd read all of my unsent letters,
you'd feel a sense of guilt. You'll regret.
And I know you'll search for me.
You'll try to find me.
And yes you will find me.
But I'll never want to see you again
coming and running back with the hope of going back to the old 'us'.
Because that's never gonna happen
I won't let it happen.
Not anymore.

So when we'll meet again.
When we'll see each other again.
You'll meet the different version of me.
And you'd say, "you're no longer the same woman I loved".
Because I'm no longer the same version of me.
From before.
And for the very last time, you'd try to find that old version of me, that old skin.
You'd search for it.
But you'll never ever see it.
And we'll never be together
Ever again.

- Juju