On mind without consent
Cold October memories
Lost myself in my descent
Shattered to bits with ease

No reason for suffering
I was a complication
To the past I cling
Scream in frustration

Yet silently demons pace
I don't stand a chance
Dreaming of your face
Echoes of fading romance

Wishing traces of presence away
Dear
Hurts to hope
Will be a passing thought someday
Now I fail to cope

At the point my strength departs
Find my pieces are far too scattered
I write about as many parts
Betrayal proved never mattered

Praying to go crazy
Forget your name
I'm finding that too hard to do
Desperate to peel off the shame
Sticking to skin like glue

I ask what you want from me
Of your options I am the best
Leaves
Clothing long shed from trees
Makes me miss way our bodies undressed

Much like love
Foliage now dead
Under layers of snow
Yet you pretend like it's summer instead
Fantasies you won't let go

Once again you look past conflict
Flowers in your brain fully in bloom
However despair renders me a derelict
Then it forces me closer to my tomb

Life lately more like death
Must learn to understand
When your fear takes the form of breath
You'll have stood where I stand

And body races through my thoughts
Lingering
Winter's chill
All of the memories twist and tie knots
Reminding I love you still