Numbers are arbitrary in a system that doesn't allow diversity. The dream world - no, As the universe as one body, it is beyond specialization, yet there are all specializations. It is arbitrary to define something. What is, is. The senses perceive it. All language is a dormant faculty in meditation. In fact, all senses are dormant faculties in meditation.
What's left is a doubt to need progress. The head is held in vacua awaiting a placement from a source beyond the Self. In meditation the head is as a ****** allowing the environment to enter it. Progress graduates as a straight back -- free.
The deepest meditation is devoid of life. I will not give up my meditation for any social undertaking, or any entertainment. I leave my seat to relieve myself or to take up water, food, or a cigarette. I become weary of stranger, friend, or family. My heart has no capacity for interaction beyond silence. The very esteem of any other man, I shrink from. The very gaze of any woman, I am anxious of. Animals laugh at my awkwardness. My own groin, I am apprehensive of its use. I do not wish to face my reflection in a mirror. But what else is there but timid eyes? Kingdom in Kingdom.
The heat from the vent keeping it 67 degrees is as a bath in the most royal palace. Pain pulverizes me.