When I first heard the word existential I thought “Ooh that’s posh perhaps I’ll pepper it in conversations, Bosh! and figure out later what it means.”
Twonk I was, I only slowly saw the word existence hidden in the cleverness of syllables and then I thought I got it
But not until a maw began to daily swallow more than a thousand souls of families and carers, teachers, truckers, nurses, loved did I become aware
And I was scared.
Not just life being lost but existence the whole ****** swirl and fanfare of little faffs and laughing drunken, first chuckles, first kisses, first footsteps, Sunday roasts, broken hearts and ecstasies
The nail-clutch of my anxiety floored me but underneath an ember burned and a fire-question unfurled and grew: