I fear I may be losing the fight of the war that goes on inside,
My armour has been stripped away and there is nowhere for me to hide,
Constant battles on a daily basis are draining my will to keep holding on,
I'm afraid that if I let go of the booey I will be forever gone,
I sometimes see myself as if I'm standing outside my body looking back,
Like someone else is In the driving seat just like a server that's been hacked,
It's a strange feeling because all my fear and worries disappear,
Almost as if they stay in my body while I am out here,
Feels so nice to have a moment where there are no voices shouting at me,
Free of all the negative thoughts and emotions for a short time I have clarity,
Although it only lasts around 10 minutes sometime a little more,
The peace and serenity feels amazing it flows straight to my core,
If only I could have this while being inside my body every single day,
But sadly when back in the driving seat all the peace and good emotions fade away.
By A L.FORDHAM
( A POET IN PINK )