When he left me his soul was gone for me and his body was still there. His anger was new his distance was new and his lack of touch too I was so confused. I was pregnant, then a mum. Untouched, the silence dumb. Bereaved, intense loss Husband won't touch me there's only frost. How do I even speak of this? he's doing the chores but there's such an abyss. Two years more and I realise depression brought this demise. Fool, it took me too long to understand what was wrong but this knowledge never did bring back his song. He remained, gone.
Here's me, trying to process and express how isolating and devastating my husband's depression was for me. I didn't know what it was for so long. He never came back to me, and I don't have any more give now. I will focus forward **