since i last let my feelings flow through my fingertips, things have changed.
i have achieved, i have progressed, i have loved. i have lost.
oh my god.
i have experienced loss so heartwrenching, so achingly, emotionally painful it was physical and a black hole has burrowed into my self that vacuums happiness whenever it pleases.
this pain will not ease- it will become normal.
without choice, memories and pictures must suffice.
but oh my god.
i have loved, been loved, am in love and loved. i am experiencing a love so strong, so natural that i feel empowered. this love is like no other- it is like home. it is comfort. it is a warm open fire on the coldest
of winter nights. it is the feeling of sun on your cheeks on the most carefree of summer days.
This Love does not counteract the black hole by any means. It complements it.
replenishing happiness that has been hoovered away, always reminding me that every dark side has a bright one.
"Yin and yang, you know?"