Do You remember when you were the thought that embraced me when I was scared

I'm not a coward but with you

I was

Comfortable
Fragile
Soft

Not weak

Just safe enough to let go of my puffed chest and tightened biceps

I think back and I miss it like the first two baseballs in Chicken Little

For all the same reasons I miss childhood

In both ways I was secure
Taken care of

Reckless with decisions
My deception for healthy options
Was twisted in the twinkies tucked away in Zombieland

Nevertheless, I leaned on for support too much

I grew through all the pain
Pins and needles digging into my funny bones to laugh louder than the comedian in a dead crowd

And to no avail
I lay in dry blood covered in fresh scars
Poorly injected incisions
Equally infected decisions