I'd like to say that I'm sorry for having hurt your hearts,
to those of you that actually tried with me,
who continue to try,
and have exposed the darkest depths of your soul to me,
I'm sorry for not feeling anything anymore once I receive from you, the only thing I was after,
I understand it's a cliche to say or admit that I've just been hurt too often before,
but I swear to you all,
it was never my intention to leave your hearts sore,
it's been hard for me to keep those feelings I had at one point in time,
fighting, so rigorously,
to hold onto something that I always felt was going to decline,
sooner rather than later,
realizing nothing ever lasts or stays in that sublime state,
holding in all this hate, not towards you,
but towards myself..
Subconsciously backing off because I too,
am afraid to fall,
into this pit of feelings and heartaches,
convincing my mind that I probably shouldn't call...