All I see when I look in the mirror, Is a reflection of his ghost. Is the dullness of his eyes And the crookedness of his teeth.
I don’t remember most of it. It’s easier to forget when My skin, like his, is awake
—So I stopped sleeping.
All my memories of him Have baptized in blood, My own blood. Perhaps my mother’s too, And that of my sisters, Maybe his.
I stopped wearing my glasses.
Maybe if I don’t see the crystal of the mirror, I won’t see him either.
But it never works.
The truth doesn’t get any cloudier. I still feel his breath on my battered back Laced with liquor and some kind of rotten.
I stopped washing my hands
Because they get more calloused And more like his.
Sometimes, When I stare at my feet, I still see cherry wine On the cold floors. I still feel glass Puncturing skin. And curses thrown Through My mother
I started drinking. But now I feel more Like him. Like the waves of beer In glass bottles Is him Trapped In a monster.