May 2020
Those moments that don’t let you sleep, the ones where you dream about ideal love and hope that you don’t die unloved, are they really the ones you chose to reflect upon?
You were introduced to the warmth of love, when your mother spoke you, while you were still developing in her womb. She knew that you would be a source of all her happiness. Even without seeking you, she showered you with her unconditional love. This one is irreplaceable, yet hardly displayed these days. Guess who grew up?
Your father had his own way of silently loving you. He became a dad when you were born. Surely, you were once his favorite He loved clicking pictures of you when you were small. He held you when your mother needed to sleep, because you had been crying your lungs out long. He perhaps, might have slept on the floor to ensure that you get enough space to sleep on the bed (unless you had your own room as soon as you were born). He is the man that paid your entire bill till you got your first job. Do you still remember the chocolates he bought for you each night? Or the small trips to the ice-cream parlor after school? Later on you drifted apart, whatever may be the reason, he still wishes well for you.
Schooling carries with it peer group and a hormonal desire to explore opposite genders. Love resided in the smile of your crush. Their eyes, their way of talking and standing. Perhaps, it was flawless and for you, they were just perfect. You didn’t ask them out because they had someone else or maybe you were besties and it’s difficult to ruin friendships. It ended with you sitting in a corner humiliated because your so called friends mocked you all the time for having crush on someone way out of your league. Schooling was difficult for you, wasn’t it?
Then came the college romance. This one started off in class and worked its way to the libraries. Assignments and coffee or snacks gave the perfect reason to hang out together. You are settling now, perhaps love for you isn’t flawless anymore. Its more about knowing the other person and thinking about something long term. But maybe, this one wasn’t meant to say. Look at you, life is pulling you in different directions. Your goals are not fixed, and neither is your pocket money. Families need a steady income and you need to break your own illusions. They find someone better or something better and moved on. What were you thinking?
Sometimes your hobbies bring you close to love. It’s about similarities that you two share. It may be guitar and poetry or something as stupid as songs. Yet you can’t blame your cupid for trying. Maybe this one doesn’t stay too long, because there are more people with the same hobbies and are better than you in many ways. Perhaps you will break your own heart and then write poetries in the name of love. But soon you will heal and move on because no one ever stays where they were left behind.
There is repentance and then there is acceptance. Perhaps you are destined to stay alone. It’s better to find yourself instead of finding others. This is the phrase of self-love. You are healing or rather closing doors for future love. Building thick walls around because you can’t be hurt twice.
Then finally, someone knocks on your doors. They are just like you healing up or broken (maybe more times than you even tried). This one knows what it feels like to be hurt, so they promise to not inflict pain on you. Your walls began to melt, you just want to sit by their side all night long and watch a perfect sunrise. You know they are the one or maybe they are not. But I will be proud of you for at least trying to say what your heart feels. Maybe you will get your “forever” out of this or maybe not. But there is no harm in trying. You are only scared to say it because you know how or what it feels to not get it back. It’s important you know what the other person feels, but it is also important for you to be sure of your own feelings.
If you do get your “forever”, there is still time for a good story to come by. But, don’t let loves leave your side when you search for a “forever” because they have kept you warm when the world gifted you its coldness
You were introduced to the warmth of love, when your mother spoke you, while you were still developing in her womb. She knew that you would be a source of all her happiness. Even without seeking you, she showered you with her unconditional love. This one is irreplaceable, yet hardly displayed these days. Guess who grew up?
Your father had his own way of silently loving you. He became a dad when you were born. Surely, you were once his favorite He loved clicking pictures of you when you were small. He held you when your mother needed to sleep, because you had been crying your lungs out long. He perhaps, might have slept on the floor to ensure that you get enough space to sleep on the bed (unless you had your own room as soon as you were born). He is the man that paid your entire bill till you got your first job. Do you still remember the chocolates he bought for you each night? Or the small trips to the ice-cream parlor after school? Later on you drifted apart, whatever may be the reason, he still wishes well for you.
Schooling carries with it peer group and a hormonal desire to explore opposite genders. Love resided in the smile of your crush. Their eyes, their way of talking and standing. Perhaps, it was flawless and for you, they were just perfect. You didn’t ask them out because they had someone else or maybe you were besties and it’s difficult to ruin friendships. It ended with you sitting in a corner humiliated because your so called friends mocked you all the time for having crush on someone way out of your league. Schooling was difficult for you, wasn’t it?
Then came the college romance. This one started off in class and worked its way to the libraries. Assignments and coffee or snacks gave the perfect reason to hang out together. You are settling now, perhaps love for you isn’t flawless anymore. Its more about knowing the other person and thinking about something long term. But maybe, this one wasn’t meant to say. Look at you, life is pulling you in different directions. Your goals are not fixed, and neither is your pocket money. Families need a steady income and you need to break your own illusions. They find someone better or something better and moved on. What were you thinking?
Sometimes your hobbies bring you close to love. It’s about similarities that you two share. It may be guitar and poetry or something as stupid as songs. Yet you can’t blame your cupid for trying. Maybe this one doesn’t stay too long, because there are more people with the same hobbies and are better than you in many ways. Perhaps you will break your own heart and then write poetries in the name of love. But soon you will heal and move on because no one ever stays where they were left behind.
There is repentance and then there is acceptance. Perhaps you are destined to stay alone. It’s better to find yourself instead of finding others. This is the phrase of self-love. You are healing or rather closing doors for future love. Building thick walls around because you can’t be hurt twice.
Then finally, someone knocks on your doors. They are just like you healing up or broken (maybe more times than you even tried). This one knows what it feels like to be hurt, so they promise to not inflict pain on you. Your walls began to melt, you just want to sit by their side all night long and watch a perfect sunrise. You know they are the one or maybe they are not. But I will be proud of you for at least trying to say what your heart feels. Maybe you will get your “forever” out of this or maybe not. But there is no harm in trying. You are only scared to say it because you know how or what it feels to not get it back. It’s important you know what the other person feels, but it is also important for you to be sure of your own feelings.
If you do get your “forever”, there is still time for a good story to come by. But, don’t let loves leave your side when you search for a “forever” because they have kept you warm when the world gifted you its coldness
