i wish i was hidden away somewhere in your mind along the string of memories that come forth every once in a while snuggled in between your first heartbreak and the time you knew you wanted to stay alive i wish i was the thought you slept on that split second when you wake up and everything is okay in the morning your calm before the storm and your calm after your go to your lifeline your lifetime.
i threw in my pennies and dimes hoping to hear a chime that turns into a ring that turns into a “hello, i miss you”
i drown in the thought of you until my face turns into a purple hue i know you never meant to bruise my heart and turn it black and blue i spoke to God about you hoping my prayers would get through but God doesn't exist to you
i wish you knew maybe you do maybe this wasn't so hard for you i know you think this wasnt right but here i am writing to you letters that are long overdue
i think about you on most days some more than others sometimes i hide under the covers hoping i might fall asleep and meet you in my dreams where i dont feel like i need to stay upon this balance beam hanging above distant memories that are falling apart at the seams
the sound of you, it fades with each passing day i'm left wondering whether i should mourn your loss or just rejoice and walk away if you asked me to, i would have stayed left everything behind and walked your way but you never asked you never called and it seems as though you never will
all i ask i that you come meet me in a café somewhere over there where faces are unfamiliar and everything is new i bet you my life you wont recognize me i am now the product of you or rather, the lack of you.
so i tried to say goodbye but my words tumble upon one another as they pass through the lump in my throat i stutter all i am able to say is my last penny goes out to you this is our wishing well i wish you well