Do you ever had that feeling where in you're both feeling lonely and contented at the same time?

I do.

I actually neved regret leaving the old me and actually starting to a new self. But then I realize, I just left the people who are responsible of the pain that I’m feeling and not the ‘old me’. The old me who’s always happy in the morning and messed up at night.

Everything just keeps on coming back and everytime it comes back, I’d remind myself that I want to make everything worth it and hopefully someday I could finally face eveything with a real, genuine smile on my face.