You are subconsciously afraid of the change that will come from going from reaching out for what you genuinely want. You relate freedom to happiness, which is something good. It doesnโt matter whether the change will be good or bad, your ego is afraid to change.
Why
Your ego likes the status quo. Right now youโre alive and well and your ego wants to keep it that way. I believe evolution has given us an โegoโ precisely for that reason, self preservation. It had a quite logical purpose back when humans were hunters and stuff. They had to be afraid of everything that was foreign in order to stay alive. Not anymore.