I have lost all of myself
I seem not to know me wholly
I feel grinded ,smashed with
a hammer ,I feel stuck between  
two mountains ready to conjoin
I have lost love of nature, love of
the flowing rivers, love of stars
glowing a million light years afar
I have lost the common feel of
Spring and it's sweet scent flowers
I feel as useless as a stone
I feel like a music with out a tone
I have lost my way, I have lost my
slay , I feel like a flawless knight
I feel like a night stripped from it's
stars, I feel like a day with out a light
I have lost the feel of my beloved
I have lost the way to the lips of my
Beloved, I have lost her touch
It feels now like a touch of chill
I have lost the ecstasy in her
I have lost my soul, I have lost my
Flaw, in this punitive , this pang
This Agony, I drink them like ale and
Be weary and drunk in these dreary
Times, and find pleasures in the
Wonders of my illusions.