It’s just a dull ache now
A sort of thrumming presence, constant
A heaviness I’ve grown accustomed to carrying around
But I remember how it felt when the weight was first dropped on my chest
And the pain was so raw
My whole body screamed at me
And I thought for so long that I was really going to die without you
I thought my heart was going to claw its way out of my chest
There’s still a gap in me, in my life
A hole
A void
That, I have not grown used to
I can feel that lack of you every day
But I know that the knife in my chest will grow blunt with time
And someone will arrive someday to fill the void
That space that I hadn’t known was empty until you melted into it
And at least the ache of your absence
Reveals that I, too, am capable of loving and being loved equally in return