My words are a guillotine and you willfully put your head underneath it. I know ******* you. It'd be so easy. A simple word here a phrase there and I'd destroy you. Leave you doubting yourself doubting me and feeling guilty for it.
My hands touch you make you plead for more. I want to freeze sometimes to just stop. Maybe even to leave. I want to leave your wondering what you did wrong. I want to break your heart. Because this is what I do. I leave things, people, in pieces.
Only once in a blue moon do I wish to destroy to break to shatter.
Sometimes, it's not you I want to hurt it's me. I want to destroy myself from the inside out. That includes hurting you beyond repair. If I make you hate me I'll have no reason not to hate myself.
You know when you're holding something precious like life in your hands say a frog and you have the fleeting thought to crush it between your fingers? That's what it feels like.
That's what this feelng is, isn't it? Just a small thing destined to go away. I don't realy wholeheartedly want to hurt you or anyone or anything really I don't.
I just want to know what you'd say what you'd do if I could ever make you cry If I could completely break you.
Part of me knows how wrong this is how I shouldn't be wonderng about this that wanting to **** something or destroy it's spirit or heart probably makes me a sociopath but I'm not sure if I care.
I want to be compared to a black hole. I want to make everyone hate me see how ugly I really am.
I want you to wish you'd never met me.
Self-destruction is a terrible thing, isn't it? When you've got nothing left and you're all on your own you have no means to go on.
I wish I didn't have you by my side, but then again, I never want you to leave.
I wish to God I could be taken from this earth but I want to stay with you forever.
Baby tell me I'm okay. That I'm not insane. That you'll love me no matter what. Because I'm scared of what I'm capable of.
I'm scared of hurting you purposely or otherwise.
This guillotine doesn't want your head to be there. It wishes you would move, save yourself. Pull away.
But you don't. You stay in the blades path. And as it goes down so does my heart.
I wasn't created to destroy.
I wrote this in my creative writing class a little less than two years ago, and ever since I've been wondering what the hell my thought process was. Even though it's not about me, it's a concept piece, I'm still in love with it.