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Feb 2020
Pieces of clothing scattered all over my bedroom floor,
This war with myself a war with many ******* casualties.
I’m going to hurt you like I always do so go get out the door,
Millions  hurt and maybe someday soon there will  be one dead.
Don’t know who’s going to win this war the monsters in my head,
Or  will  it  be  me  but  who is me no I just want to disappear and die.
But I’m too afraid of death no I’m just a coward no  I  am   just  a  fool,
I wish I could  just close my **** eyes and go to sleep for ******* ever.

I'm not your daughter no I'm not your daughter no I'm your wait...don't know who I am anymore,
Dig me a  grave but do me a favor save your tears see  sometimes I  feel like I’m already gone.
And I cut all ties to all those who care or I hope and wish that  they'll fix me some  *******  how,
But maybe I'm just this way and maybe I'm not meant to be  fixed  and maybe I was born to go.
Yeah  maybe I was  born to want to  die  maybe I was born to live a lie  maybe I’m afraid to  try,
Maybe I’m scared of life and of death and maybe I’m just terrified of every  single ******* thing.
I don’t want to be alive often wish that I was never born at all and all these things I’ll never say,
Don’t  want  you  to  see me in a different light and I don’t want to see your disappointed  eyes.

I’m  not  your  daughter no I’m not your *******  daughter  no  I’m your so—I’m someone  else,
Don’t  know  if you  know  me  you  should  but  you  don’t cause I’m hiding even  from myself.
Meaningless I  love  you’s are mumbled cause I don’t know how that feels anymore I’m numb, Everyone else are living their lives and then there’s me and I don’t know what I’m doing  ****!
You  say  that  it’s a choice and you say that I should choose to live but what if I don’t want to,
What if  I can’t choose and what if my mind and my body don’t agree  on who I ******* am?!?
And what if  I just feel  *******  lost and dead  and afraid   emotions all over the ******* place,
Tell  me  how  to  control this black hole within taking all hopes and all dreams a ******* way?
Written by
Kobain  16/Transmasculine
(16/Transmasculine)   
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