Lately I haven’t been feeling like myself and lately I’ve been wondering if certain things are still worth it. Does my man understand my worth and appreciate and accept me for who I am? I shouldn’t have to question myself every week about this. I want things to get better and I want us to be better but I don’t know what’s meant anymore . All I know is that I love him with all my heart and at this point my heart is hurting. It was too open too available for him and now it is just an open wound that only I can heal. Only I will know how to heal it and in time I pray things will
go well . But only god knows if we’re meant . I would never want this to feel like  waste of time on both sides and I don’t want to give up either. He wants to be mentally stimulated and apparently I haven’t been that for him. It doesn’t matter how much of a intellectual I am if we cannot see eye to eye . I’ve been a ride or die but if we cannot move forward we can’t fly high. I just have to trust my intuition because it always knows best lord knows I’ve been put to the test...