Most of my poetry on here is from 2 years ago
Back when I was
- not depressed -
But covered in a blanket of social anxiety and under confidence
which could have easily been mistaken for such
Each of my poems from then
involves the romantic dreams of a naive young girl
searching for a purpose, searching for her purpose
Each of my poems from then
ends in a query
- as if -
I didn't think I could possibly be right
and I was still trying to find my way
Each of my poems from then
involved an intrinsic indecisiveness
from a time when my every word every glance every action
was blanketed and wrapped into a burrito of -
"am I doing this right?"
"what should I do?"
"Should I even be...?"
But now,
It's two years later and about time for me to get my shi* together
It's come for me, whether I'm ready or not
Time to leave my bubble and take my first step
time for applications
I'm not nearly as experienced, wise, nor knowledgeable as I could, should, will be
But I better get my act together and look like
I AM