I see you within the lavender
dreams the
Stream of consciousness
The water is murky
murky feelings, murky
thoughts brings something wicked this way
something crooked comes my way
and twists around every fiber
heartstring, molecule
cream curdles and a thousand
eyes become watered
where are you she cries and cries
far and away I know, he knows
far and away I sometimes see
your face onto the frame of a stranger
stop longing, stop aching
he doesn’t care, he is hiding
modern mythology comes into the clear
crisp, cruel—
im not devout
you are within everything and nothing
the nothing of a pupil, within the everything of the ocean
you elude me and arise as the
moon falls and then
strokes the sea
depravity  leads to
delusion
delusion divine
delusion sweet and sickly as
honey
forever aching, forever longing
through hiding and through health
I think I’m devout