Dec 2019
3/12/19
inside my head
I'm not crazy, i'm just confused.
I don't know who I am anymore i thought i know what life was about, i thought i had things figured out... but instead my world came crashing down. I lost myself.
I didn't care what was going to happen. I don't regret the things I did in the past.
it has taken so many years for me to love who I was I used to hate who I was I wasn't the person i wanted to.
happy ? I wanted to be happy but my version of being happy is different maybe my version is slightly wrong... let me explain mines more like your sad yes i know but oh wait there are people better smile or in other words smile for the camera its showtime. just like in the movies your acting for a role but in life your acting a role your playing forever. see life is like a movie its keeps going on going some parts will be boring and other parts will be good , so grab your popcorn and get comfy this movie called life is about to start...
you don't know it but you've been playing it since you were born you have a part in life that your stuck with. a day in the life starring...
inside my head is a million words spaces thoughts , what's inside my mind controls my everyday life.
yet it doesn't seem that way and i wonder why, like questions why is it that some days you wake up happy and other you just want to cry for days.
like your mind tells you okay when you wake up your gonna be happy as a sunflower okay ready 1... 2... 3... wake up " GOOD MORNING WORLD IT'S A GREAT DAY''
and other days your mind tells you okay when you wake up your gonna be sad as a dead rose okay ready 1... 2... 3... wake up " ugh I don't want to get up let me sleep "
but most of the time its im okay i got this i can do this im just... one moment let me grab my bag... okay im ready... wait i. I just can't life is too hard to live maybe i'll try again tomorrow.
sometimes its really easy to think life is perfect but in reality its hard and at points in your life you feel like you want to give up.
the motivation depends on what your mind wants you to do. you have to control your life don't let your mind do it for you you go this yes this thing called life so so challenging yet so beautiful at the same time but you have the skills to do what you want in life don't let people ruin that joy you have inside you and yes we all are happy on the inside that's why we hide it we know that if you let them see that your really happy you know that it would eventually come crashing down. that's why our actions speak louder than words.
inside my head
I'm not crazy, i'm just confused.
I don't know who I am anymore i thought i know what life was about, i thought i had things figured out... but instead my world came crashing down. I lost myself.
I didn't care what was going to happen. I don't regret the things I did in the past.
it has taken so many years for me to love who I was I used to hate who I was I wasn't the person i wanted to.
happy ? I wanted to be happy but my version of being happy is different maybe my version is slightly wrong... let me explain mines more like your sad yes i know but oh wait there are people better smile or in other words smile for the camera its showtime. just like in the movies your acting for a role but in life your acting a role your playing forever. see life is like a movie its keeps going on going some parts will be boring and other parts will be good , so grab your popcorn and get comfy this movie called life is about to start...
you don't know it but you've been playing it since you were born you have a part in life that your stuck with. a day in the life starring...
inside my head is a million words spaces thoughts , what's inside my mind controls my everyday life.
yet it doesn't seem that way and i wonder why, like questions why is it that some days you wake up happy and other you just want to cry for days.
like your mind tells you okay when you wake up your gonna be happy as a sunflower okay ready 1... 2... 3... wake up " GOOD MORNING WORLD IT'S A GREAT DAY''
and other days your mind tells you okay when you wake up your gonna be sad as a dead rose okay ready 1... 2... 3... wake up " ugh I don't want to get up let me sleep "
but most of the time its im okay i got this i can do this im just... one moment let me grab my bag... okay im ready... wait i. I just can't life is too hard to live maybe i'll try again tomorrow.
sometimes its really easy to think life is perfect but in reality its hard and at points in your life you feel like you want to give up.
the motivation depends on what your mind wants you to do. you have to control your life don't let your mind do it for you you go this yes this thing called life so so challenging yet so beautiful at the same time but you have the skills to do what you want in life don't let people ruin that joy you have inside you and yes we all are happy on the inside that's why we hide it we know that if you let them see that your really happy you know that it would eventually come crashing down. that's why our actions speak louder than words.
