....and yet I am here

'a dot on the card
he's drinking cold beer'
someone said from the back room

but there's always someone down on you
because they can't rise above themselves.

****,
I'm imagining things,
things like
conversations I never had
in my head
things like
Raquel whatsername
asleep in...
..see what I mean?

I don't think I'm receiving
it must be the aerial
and
I haven't got the wherewithal
to get a new one.