I'm nothing but a mere reflection of who's around, Too scared of my pain becoming unbound, Always on guard, never showing my truth, Because of the trauma stemming from my youth, Never had the chance to be myself, I was too busy hiding from everybody else, Constantly in a state of fight or flight, Crying myself to sleep every night, All I've known is abuse and neglect, Pain, suffering, sadness, is what I project, So I protect my heart from ever having to feel, I can't distinguish what's fake from what's real.