I have poured out my tears, so I understand . The hurting needs healed so very desperately. That they have turn to the bottle or drugs here. To take away the overwhelming pain they have. I have been there myself in California to be exact. When a woman that I cared about rejected me. But still the Good Lord delivered me later from it. He was trying to reach out to me through it all. So yes I can feel your pain and am praying for you. To be delivered of it and then healed of it too.