Sometimes I feel I am no longer writing for myself, but rather becoming more like an elf. Working and writing for everyone, but myself.
I feel the need to keep my followers entertained consistently and constantly out of the fear I may lose my audience.
I feel I lost the purpose of my writing, finding myself writing to the others liking rather than expressing the voice within me.
For, once writing felt like a destress but now it seems more of a stress.
I find myself beating my mind, scraping for ideas, juicing what's left within me, to be drained just to post consistently.
It's important to remember to put yourself first above others. To express to your likings and authenticity. To not lose one self in the muddle of others demands, voices and likings. To remember the reason, why you initially started.