They say I'm depressed And they seem right so far All I know is I'm a blessed mess And though I quote I'm too blessed to be stressed But I'm stressed and I know I'm blessed Leave it to the doctors and specialist they seem to know whats best Distressed perplexed and confused Down right sad dismal and blue It took a while to admit I was beat Defeated Didn't watch what I ate I wasn't great Cared less about my fate I mean I cared but it didnt dissapate And it seemed it could withstand the weight So I gave it another stiff arm What would be the harm It withstood my charm My charisma My pleads and my begs But it wasnt until I was fed Up and downright ****** More than a we gone to get through this My energy was on ten Determined to get a win By any means Strength and grit Smile and wit Bend down a bit Cause I know how to pray From a dismal blue to a dark hued gray My depression didn't didnt bend stray or go away To my dismay and my demise Other wise and next slide I is tired Boss Calculated the cost Removed the dross Can't fake the funk or pretend To floss Coins to toss Do I admit defeat Outcome looks bleak Do I cheat Should I speak Whose help to seek Sat in a therapist chair Felt like the enemys lair Not a chess champ or even a player Not here or there A few more gray hairs Not a win anywhere So I changed therapist and asked for help Took what was bottled up off the shelf Put it all on display let it all hang out Surrendered my clout Pushed through the doubt Got it all out Cringed screamed and shout Wanted to cry but the tears won't come out Shared a little Grew strong where I was brittle Stopped twiddling Fiddling Learned to listen Put two and two of what I was missing Didn't know the term Unlearned what I learned I was functionally depressed Blessed and stressed Perplexed out of context Vexed Distressed Let's Get the concept Light bulb on In character More laughter Silence the chatter It simply doesnt matter Moving towards what I'm after Terms like radical acceptance and new normal Informal Out of the turmoil Enemys plan foiled Unbridled unspoiled Cleaning the soiled Exchanged my linens Grinning and winning Doing it different To a Great extent Choosing to vent Saying thank you to those Who lent Ears times smiles and tears Cheers and being kind Helping me out of life's bind Lost and found Common ground And on the pitchers mound No longer down Or out Snatched back my clout Upturned my pout Fully working it out And through it Gets better by the bit Me and depression have split I'm ok and handling it The divorce was hard She still had my debit card A few unauthorized charges Interruptions And barges But I'm on top Top flight Fighting full of might On the other side of my plight In spite Of all the hype I choose to swipe Left right up or down Till I find my sound And the brightness resounds All the while my hope rebounds