Seated in the rain
Singing the same
Sad song
Playing in my heart
In my head
For only I to hear
To understand

Scared to live
Scared to die
Time races by
I'm just a passenger
But I'm supposed to be
The conductor
So why
Am I just taking the ride?

Laying back
On the edge
Here I lay
Paralyzed
Of everything
But really
Just one thing;
Me

Just feeling numb
No control
It's been a while
So
I suppose
I want anything
To have a little
Over myself

One...
I let the water run
Crashing over me
It's taking over me
Taken over me

Two...
Let the memories in
Replaying, over and over
Like voices
In my head

Three...
I hold my breath
Silently scream
Trying to let it go
But they won't let me go
These **** memories

Four...
I lift up my head
To the clouds
How it is to soar
I wonder
But
I shall never know
For I am bound
To the ground
Where I shall one day be
From whence I came

- Jay M
June 21st, 2019