there was no doubt that my parents loved me.
of course they'd hug me and tell me they loved me when i was a small child.
but the universe shifted and we all know the hell that was brought upon us for those dark years.
everyone changed and i tried so hard to hold onto what we all had.
but i couldn't.
my parents stopped hugging me back.
there would be silence when i told them i loved them.
i began to lock myself up in every way shape and form.
i wanted you to come find me, mom.
i wanted you to hug me again.
i just wanted you to look at me, dad.
please just lift your head up.
where were you when i was crying?
there was a point where i didn't care if anyone heard me,
there was a point where i didn't care where i was.
even if you were standing right next to me as i bawled my eyes out,
where were you?