It's getting harder and harder to breath
Oh, so much pressure on me

I've got 2 days left...
(if you include today)

Then my fate is sealed
This is so real
I'll be the failure
They've always known me to be
I'll be the one...
Crawling under their skin

The oldest is supposed to be the boldest
But hey,
Is that really what we should say?
Will I be okay?
If i really do hit rock bottom,
What does that really say?
That I shouldn't have given up?
That I was the mistake?
Yeah, well,
I'll just
Show how
Purposeful a mistake
A failure
Can be

I deserve to have a chance
So I'll work
I'll try
Even as the sands of time
Every grain
Falls ever faster
Against me
Waiting to reclaim me
I'll make it wait
I'll make it wait.

- Jay M
May 30, 2019