last night, there were tears in my eyes and i chuckled for a moment. after so many days, i finally have the time to think about what just transpired. i finally have the time to remember you, to think about the chaos, the storm you brought in me. i'm left feeling distraught, not with you but with myself for allowing it. why didn't i fight the urge to go near you? logic never saved me, it only made matters worse. i tried to rationalize every part of you that didn't make any sense. i tried to explain why every moment we part, everything burns. i'm still burning, only the flames are bigger. and you're still the catalyst.