I didn't mean to lie
When I said I felt good
That the anxiety was gone
That I wasn't depressed
I knew I had a few bad days
But I was having a good streak
So I told you I felt fine
And now I'm not sure I meant it
But I'm so afraid of going back
To the place I was in
That I don't really want to tell you anyway
Because I'm better than that
That mess I was
And I don't want to let go
Of the okay I'm feeling