I Am Not Suicidal, But

I am not suicidal.
I will not **** myself.
I will not self-harm.
I will not throw myself in front of a bus
Or take a **** ton of pills
I am angry
I am experiencing a manic episode
I am going to hit a wall again and freak out
I am probably going to go to jail OR get a ticket.
I am not doing school work
I am scared.
I am worried.
I am anxious.
I am nervous.
I’m picking at my nails.
Worrying about the rumors spreading.
I am listening to depressing music.