Raining Droplets of red Upon my head As I cry But it just won't stop
Keeping a wall of thorns Decorated by the blood Of those who tried to get through You can't break through... Don't let it get you, too...
An invisible hand Tugging my strings Pulling them tighter still Killing me inside Every breath battled for Every step forced forward
Holding my head Blood dripping to it From my legs From my arms...
Sleepless and so tired Barely getting by And every day I ask; Why?
Growling at me Snapping jaws Scaring me Into obedience
Elongated ears Black hide Slick, like tar Muscled and lean It awakens And looks to me With utter calm And understanding It stands Dots of white for eyes Guiding me to a tunnel Dark and unknown Then leaving me...
Lying on the floor of the bathroom Trembling hands as I hold it The sewing needle Dragging it over my skin Over and over My light has long faded Maybe never was Dropping the needle
Grasping the cup Drinking the soothing water Then holding some In my mouth Pills in my other hand
Trembling
"I just want to be okay... No more lying... No more crying... No more being the little failure..."
Delicately placing them in my mouth Swallowing my poison Now waiting Fading Hiding in the chill in my bones
Then I look up Seeing the room spin Go dark Fade away from view As I fall away...
Waking up in my bed Alive No blood oozing No pills in my hand No fading away to my rest...
Helpless, but I try anyway Picking myself up Dragging myself around Because I know;
No matter how bad I get There is always someone who cares... Someone who would take my pain... Never do I want them to take my burden So I'll stay for them Whomever they may be...
- Jay M April 19th, 2019
This is based on a drawing I made...and a dream I had. Well, here you go...