I have a good memory
I may not remember every moment
Of my 28 years of living
However, I do remember our moments
And I remember the last "see you later"
We said to each other

A part of my heart
Was dead set on moving to NYC
A dream I have had my entire life
The other part of my heart
Was dead set on you
The woman I had the biggest crush on in college
Yet I didn't think I was good enough
Until the year we both graduated together

I was so lost
What dream do I decide to pursue?
I couldn't have both
Because you are not a big city woman
And I'm a weird mix between the ghetto, the country, the suburbs, and the big city type of man

I remember the day you helped me pack all of my belongings
In the little red Toyota car I had
And saying
"I will see you soon, I promise"
You shed your tears
And my stubborn self cried inside

But then both of our lives
Went different ways
Yet what we already expressed to each other
We both traveled exactly how we wanted to

I don't have many decisions that I think
"What if..." every night I go to sleep
Yet this decision I think about every night
If we will never be together
In the sense of a romantic relationship
I have no one to blame, but myself

I may have missed out
On the perfect love of my life
I wanted as a young boy
Chasing career dreams
Over personal dreams

You are happy where you are
And I am happy where I am
I just know that
This will always be
The toughest life decision I have made
And I do not know
If I will ever get over it
All I can do
Is hope for a clear answer
In my own mind