This was going to be another I love you poem
A please don't go plea
Explain how the pain is to much
Desricbe the heart break
How I want to drink these tears dry
Beg for more time and promise change
This was going to show how sorry I am in a hundred different ways
Let you know that if your gone then I want to go to
This was going to be filled with words that would keep you here
I would beg if needed
Give whoever whatever if we continued forever
But it never got the chance


Passed out before writing the first word out
Woke with pen still in my hand
Paper scattered on the bed
Leaned over to the pillow that would've been holding your head
Took a deep breathe then kissed it softly
First time in nine years your lips wasn't there
First time in nine years my day began with tears wetting my face
Few got by cleaning the sleep dust from my eyes
Just before anger stopped the chance to really cry
Why?
Why this ?
Why now?
Why am I beginning to smile?
Am I not hurting as much as I should?
Did I not love you as much I believed?
Staring at the empty bed I finally see what was lost for a long time
You bright eyed and laughing
Then I  hear you telling me your quote of the day
Happy for no other reason then that's the type of person you are
Gone was the look of pain and misery that deprived you of the life you loved
And the world of your beautiful smile
Everything will change by not changing at all
I promise that our forever will continue one day
Untill then I ask you to keep an eye on me from your view in the sky
And I'll continue to do what I always done
That's looking up to you