i found a home in the piercing loudness of the train a strange metal box that stopped for no one and everyone all at once, in the way my feet scurried up steps and tapped to the rhythm of a destination familiar yet unseen.
i found a home in the makeshift river as thin as my veins, a respite unexpected but welcome, and in the beach as endless as the new happiness that crashed towards me, waves on a cold, lonely shore.
i found a home in the hallway without chairs where we all sat, a little dizzy words flowing easily from our lips like the spring breeze forgetting ourselves and remembering each other.
i found a home that i built for myself, with small hands that had never held dirt nor brick and, trembling with trepidation, i gave it all my love. it sways in the wind and rain leaks through the cracks, but it is the first thing i have ever called mine.
i found a home and left it and i canβt remember why and i am deathly afraid to return for fear i may find it sabotaged by weeds, thick stems curling possessively around something i thought was mine but can no longer recognize.