your smile lights up my heart it makes my heart race, hands shake, knees weak, mind scramble, and i get light headed. all from a smile, a smile i know isn’t mine, but i would do anything to make it mine. i see you walk off with her everyday, and i stand there. wishing that it could be me knowing that it isn’t. you say you love me but, do you? or do you love the idea of me? the thought that you want me but you can’t have me.
now you have me and you love someone else. was i right or was this all a mistake? why do i cut myself, deeper and deeper everyday? is it love or is it my ego? unwilling to let go and unwilling to say anything. this goes on for half a year and i sit here. plastering a fake smile and a fake love for you. two can play at this game my dear