it is painful and numbing To wish for hate to flood I cannot hate you Even if you do not let me go But drop me On my face onto concrete
City lights are so blinding Blurring my tears I swing on the moon Sip from the devils brew Just to momentarily forget you Dont lift me so high If you only wanted to drop me Blood swells in my mouth I choke on my heart Your silence is deafening
Tires screeching in the night Prolonging the inevitable An accident at the center of my world I let you in too close I should have gotten better security Tell em your description This wont happen again Except it will It has You're the first to get this close To drop me from so high I will cling to you in those seconds Not life- not living- you Made my life bearable Did I hurt you accidentally When I poured my poison Into a glass You tossed back toxin after toxin Of mine Like it was nothing Did I hurt you Did I change you
This numbing pain clings Like your whispers across my skin As you ran through me Shivers igniting me aflame You were always my favorite I melted in your arms It felt safe and warm Did I push you away When I put up defenses When I simply was there for you Or was I nothing Did I demote along the way Was I not enough Did I not give enough
I didn't try hard enough I wasn't enough for you You think of me as irresponsible Yet I did my best It wasn't enough I wasn't enough Even at my best You wished for me to be better
I'm sorry I am not enough
he's a good one I say I hate men He nods and says same