breathe. it isn't real. do not cry. wake up. control. don't scream. keep it yourself. you're awake. just a dream. pain. it doesn't hurt. scars, marks, wounds. deep cuts. not bleeding. compartmentalize. don't be scared. lost. scattered thoughts. hide it. please. I'M FINE.
What I tell myself. I thought, maybe if I say it or write it down enough, I'll start to believe it. So far nothing.