No sleep leaves more time to reminisce of a past I'll regret till the day I decide that it's my last
Unable to pull away from a place my mind always seems to always find
Searching for anything I can put some faith in
Praying for a glimpse of light ahead of me
Wishing I could believe my own lies
And I wonder why I live with self hate
Hands in empty pockets as I find somewhere to hide
Heart is hurting just like my thoughts of the future
A hater of pain but I know I done to much wrong to go out in peace
I out stayed my lease and cheated on time
Praised alchol and treated drugs like God's
Unable to blame it on a childhood filled with unspeakable memories
Raised with love by the best and before you ask I already have
What the hell happened to me
How did I break myself of all self worth
Sold myself short then never showed up
Been wasting air since birth with every breath
I need more then rest
Brain dead so I can't reset my mind
If I could have just one request
God keep my mom and dad away from the window
No parents should have to witness this