It's funny
you were there the whole time
right in front of my face
I talked to you everyday
(even when I told myself I wouldn't)
as you supported my ever crumbling
self.
Reluctant in giving me up
or giving up on me
as half the time I was half blinded
-doubting
-second guessing
feeding myself uncertainties
while believing the lies of others.
Yet you remained here
through it all
after everything I've ever
engulfed into your life.
-pain
-heartache
swept into your life without warning
the empty words that secretly
were teeming with a truth even I hid from myself
but I knew it deep down.
I really did.
And I thought about it a lot
(thought about you a lot)
and yes, there you are
in front of me smiling, still here
after all that I put you through
holding my hand beside me
and finally, I see it
and it is mine
and I've never been happier.