I love you
At times I don't want to
I tried everything not to
But like I always said
Theirs something about you
I love you
Even when you let me know I mean nothing to you
Or worse
When others let me know how you really feel
It's a brutal beating every time
You think I would be tired of it
And I am but it's alot harder being away from you then it is to pick myself up again
I love you
Even when you tell me theirs better
After you tried with others pushing me off the edge
I often wonder what position I was in
But the walk was to far from the back for me to ask
Besides I was just happy to have any spot in line
I love you
But your wrong when you say I tried holding you back
Or holding you down or holding you anyway except  tightly in my arms feeling your chest move from your heartbeat
From night one I expressed who I seen
Not to try and get you in bed
Something had me feeling things I never felt before
I didn't say it but I could've and I would've meant it if I said it right then
I love you
Not just because of your beauty or how smart you are, not only because I find you funny and easy to talk to
It's more then just your long legs and seductive smile ,
Goes beyond how you look **** and the way I feel when I look at you
It's just because your you
And I love who you are
I love you
And I hate me
I thought I liked myself more then to allow me to fall for someone who never seen me as I seen them
One who said they wanted forever but seemed to never give up looking
I love you
And I hate me
Why would I continue to hurt myself by feeling the feelings I do for you
What can't I understand about how easy it was for you to walk away
Looking back only to make sure I was still there just in case you needed someone to catch when you fell back
I love you
And I hate me
I have a thousand more reasons but why pen them if the person reading them does so with blind eyes
Why tell them if the person I need to hear it has deaf ears
It's like trying to love with no love to give because the person who you want to feel your love has stole your love making you hate everything about you