Is that what is called failed? my heart screamed loudly and shook the contents of my body. already ... everything is useless. my lips chattered softly. I want to run away. Where? but don't know the direction. if gratitude is not enthroned in this self already ... be patient! ... my other side is sticking out ... just pretend I'm tough ... in front of them ... my dear ones. hope and prayer are clear. weeding my fear. yeah i'm scared .. make them sad. but again ... already. they just told me to be grateful ... make it elegy but tomorrow must be radiant