The very walls I built To keep the clutter out Suffocate me daily Shutting me in with my thoughts Questioning my decisions testing my patience. Was I wrong? Or right? Have I added to my mistakes? Will I wake up tomorrow? The burden overwhelms me I fear that I will give in To the heartwrenching fear Of the unknown. A weight settles on me Bearing down on my chest I heave breath after troubled breath who knows if it's my last? I prepare myself for death Sink into nothingness below For there are no worries nothing but stillness. No,I will not let the reaper close But how to deal with my pain That is anew everyday I find fault with the sun and moon No one to distract me From these savage insecurities hounding at my door am I pretty enough? Strong? can I do it? Will I succeed? it seems I am doomed to doubt Trapped by inequities and someday I just hope These walls will be solace And not my jailer.