sometimes i don’t want to go to sleep
i don’t want to think or have weird dreams
these dreams are never about anything specific or important
but i don’t like how they make me feel when i wake
uncomfortable and uneasy

they leave traces of glass
shards of broken memories
of nothing and anything
and everything in between

the thinking is tricky you see
sometimes my brain goes far too fast
but other times it drags on and on
before bed my mind pulsates
i don’t like it

i wish that my head would just go blank
not forever, just for a moment
just so i could catch some sleep
easily, effortless, without a second thought
white nothingness

i wish to be wrapped in an envelope of silence
so that when i wake i feel
well rested
free
untangled
like i am not chained down

is that too much to ask?