I wish

I wish I could
turn off the thoughts
swarming through my head
that is full of fears  
before it turns to tears

It's like I am locked in a cage
It's a feeling I can't seem to gage
I have more pain then I can take
I'm nervous about everything
I don't know why, I just am and
no-one seems to understand
I'm broken beyond repair

I'm not living,I'm waiting
but I have no idea what it is
I'm waiting for. I'm scared
for what it might be

I won't be able to battle it
I'm losing,sinking,fleeing
Terrified, terrorized  and paralyzed
Panic won't **** me
I wish it could